Downtime
In the evenings, I find time to do things I would've normally done during the day. Whether that be washing, or tidying up my room, or sorting out eBay orders. My evenings are my downtime, regardless of how busy or not busy my day was.
As per my previous blog to do with Job uncertainty my days are getting quieter and quieter which I personally see as a bad thing. 4 years ago I'd have balled for a quiet day, but now I see quiet days as a bad thing. I enjoy keeping busy, being bored and being paid isn't as good as it sounds. If anything, I feel immense guilt for doing nothing, which I shouldn't - but I do.
My brain tells me downtime isn't allowed because I haven't worked hard enough during the day - which sounds so stupid to write down, but I am 100% sure some of you here can relate to this.
I've been really enjoying writing these posts in the evenings - I find it almost therapeutic. Having people actually engage with what I write is pretty awesome. The Combine did a response to my previous post and was an interesting read - I understand their side of the coin, and it made me look at things from a slightly different angle. I am trying to be more optimistic about my job search going forward, and I'm going to push myself to find a new role in the next 2–3 months.
It's also really cool to see people engaging with the guestbook - the only downside is I can't reply to any of you, so I have opened up my email to the public. If you wish to reach out, share some thoughts with one another or just have a general chit-chat - you can email me (see the footer at the bottom of the page). I like to think of myself as fairly open, and easy to chat to - no pressure as always. I am very grateful to the people who have read what I have to say, and that it has really pushed me to keep this up.
That's all from me this evening, thank you once again for reading - signing off.